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to my November goal…..had my weigh in tonight……down 2 lbs! Woohoo!  So that makes a total of 8 lbs lost and 7lbs to go so i can meet my 16 lb goal for my birthday!  I figured i would lose 4lbs per month from August to November…i made my august goal and i have just .6lbs to lose next week to make my September goal…. just gotta keep on going…i can’t wait for my birthday!

For those of you who don’t know the Eastern States Expo (otherwise known as the Big E) is in MA for a couple of weeks.  It is a gigantic fair with everything you could possibly think of and every year for the past 3 years i have been going with a couple of friends.  Well yesterday was our Big E day and let me tell you…we arrived at 10:30am and we didn’t leave until 9pm…oh and by the way we didn’t even see everything their is to see!  For me the Big E is one of the best days in the year….all i do is eat, drink, walk around and buy ridiculous things i will never use just becuase they do a live infomertial.  Now the Big E is NOT a place you do to when you are trying to lose weight…i mean they have a stand that will fry just about anything and the portions don’t come in small and large just JUMBO.  Taking all of this into consideration prior to going i decided that i was going to have fun no matter the points…and let me tell you… I DID!!  I won’t even discuss what i ate but i will tell you i did not feel guilty doing it because i knew that it was going to be a one day thing. 

So this morning it was back to business…i had two low fat multi grain waffles with a few spritzes of smart balance spray butter and some ice water and for lunch i had 2 cups of pasta with broccoli. Later i will munch on something light and then do my grocery shopping for the week. 

I know that if i worried about what was healthy enough for me to eat yesterday i would have been miserable….i think that giving myself that one day to just not care will actually help my weight loss journey.  You can’t be perfect everyday so why not make your imperfect day a fun one too!  All i can say is that i can’t wait for next year…and if anyone gets a chance they should totally go to the Big E…you won’t regret it! 

Went to my WW meeting on Thursday and ……. down 1.4!  Woohoo…..i know it doesn’t seem like a lot but about 2 weeks ago i had actually gained that weight and i am just so glad i was able to take it off again. 

Well i didn’t weigh in last Thursday….i used the no weigh in pass that you get when you first join Weight Watchers.  I knew i was not on plan the week before so i figured it would be a good time to use the pass.  However i did just go grocery shopping for the week and i have all healthy stuff. My problem now isn’t what i am eating but more how much of it i am eating and when i am eating it.  Since i pack my lunch for work i have control over what i eat during the day but the minute i get home i feel like i need to eat and then the munching doesnt stop until i go to bed.  Most of the time it isn’t even “bad for you” food but i can get a bit carried away and eat alot of it.  That is my new challenge…controling what i eat in the evening.  I get home from work around 4 so it’s too early for dinner but i am starting to get hungry b/c i eat lunch around 12:30.  So i need some ideas for a healthy light snack to munch on when i get home.  I usually have dinner around 5:30/6 and i am good until around 8/9pm.  This is when that craving for “something” comes around.  I have been trying to have a diet soda and sometimes that works but sometimes i have to eat something.  So any ideas for healthy light snack options (besides fruits and veggies - b/c i eat alot of them at lunch and dinner) for pre-dinner and late night?? 

Thanks for reading!

Lu

So as i totally predicted i neglected the site for a while( and by a while i mean 6 months…lol) BUT i am back and i plan on posting a blog at least once a week.  So what’s been new you ask….well to start i have nixed the Alli program - i was so scared i was going to crap my pants that it really put a burden on the whole weight loss thing.  It became too much to deal with however my weight did not fluctuate that much in the past six months so that, at least, was a plus.  I am back on Weight Watchers… as they say the 6th time is the charm…lol. It’s been about 3 weeks now and i have lost 4.6 lbs.  My goal is to lose 16lbs by my birthday (which is in November) and since i came up with the goal in July i calculated that i would have to lose 4 lbs a month from August to November in order for me to acheive this.  So far so good…my August mini-goal of 4lbs. was met and now i start the 4lb journey for September.  I won’t say it has been easy…i have definitely has some struggles but i just have to keep forging on.  The nice thing about WW this time is that i am not doing it alone…..i dragged a friend with me and it has been nice to have someone to talk to about the program.  I really am determined and this time it just feels right….my next challenge will be getting back to the gym - my membership for one gym has expired but i am looking into another one.  Well i guess that is enough for now….i get weighed in on Thursday but i may use my No Weigh In Pass but i will keep you updated.

Thanks for listening

Lu

Okay….I know….I have been neglecting the site for a few weeks but that was only because i was very busy getting my game plan together…lol.  I believe i have mentioned before that i was contemplating starting the weight loss supplement Alli and well, this past Wednesday i did.  After lots of research I decided that it couldn’t hurt to try it out and I like what i am seeing!  It has been 5 days and so far i have lost 4.4 pounds!  My official weigh in date is Wednesday so i will update my tracker then.  It definitely takes a lot of conscious decision making about what i am going to eat but that is what i need to learn.  With other plans you need to do the same thing but the only consequence was gaining weight….with Alli you have to be aware of the “treatment effects” which makes you doubly conscious about what you are eating.  All in all i am liking what is happening!

I still haven’t found time for the gym but that is my goal this week…..to get to the gym at least twice….i know your supposed to go at least 3 times but i have class three nights a week and i work a full time job - so needless to say my weeks are a little chaotic.  I think that if i get there twice this week that will motivate me to get there more often.  We shall see what happens!

I believe that is all for now….thanx for listening!

Ok, i know….i have neglected this site for a lil bit….but i am back and i have to say being gone for only a week or so is impressive for me….usually it’s months…lol…..

So i have this week off from work (unfortunately not from school) and somehow i have managed to pack in seeing all of my friends……this also means that i have managed to make time for plenty of lunches and dinners out along with coffee stops and movie trips….and on top of it all i am babysitting my nephew (well co-babysitting, if you will, my mom is helping too!) Needless to say that the whole diet thing isn’t soo great….i mean i am making better choices than i normally would so i guess that is a start but when i get back to work it will be better….

well i think i just needed to vent about that cuz i can’t think of anything more to write…ohh except for the fact that i saw the best movie ever tonight with one of my friends…..27 Dresses was sooooo cute - i totally loved it ……well that was my off topic tidbit for the day i guess i will go and get some sleep….ha ha it’s only 10:30pm, i’m such a grandma…lol…

ttyl

Ok….so i bought a new scale today, my old one has been on the fritz, and just for kicks i thought i would weigh myself this evening.  Now that was my first mistake seeing that i ate whatever i wanted today which included pasta, steak, and cake and i knew that it was going to be a little high since it is the evening but i think i had my ah-ha moment.  As i stepped off the scale the bright blue backlight of my scale showed me just how bad things have gotten…..it read 302.1!   NEVER in my life have i weighed this much and never did i believe i could but i do and that is the most frightening thing i have ever seen.  It is time to do something about this before it gets any worse…so maybe it was a blessing in disguise that i bought that scale today….i am still in shock but i have to forge on ….i think i am going to plan my meals for tomorrow

thanx for listening

Alrighty…i’m fat…..there i said it and there is no denying that fact.  I have been overweight the majority of my life and i am just plain tired of it.  I have tried countless weight loss programs that have worked - when i wasn’t cheating! But without fail i would succumb to my cravings time and time again.  In elementary/middle school i was bigger than mostly everyone else but not drastically….i was well liked by teachers and peers…i was on the basketball team so that helped physically and socially.  In highschool i was the ”heavy” girl but i managed to be semi-popular (i was friends with all the different cliques) and my size didn’t bother me then.   College was the best time of my life and the worst all wrapped in one…..I made the best friends possible and i gained approximately 65 lbs during my 4 years of living on campus.  My biggest problem with my weight is that I am not happy anymore.  I mean I can easily put on a front but I want to be really happy.  And yet even though I know that i am fat there seems to be this skinny girl inside me who believes that she can eat whatever she wants and that is not okay with me anymore.  This is my attempt to fix the way i think about food….so here goes…  

I have done something similar to a weight loss blog before and i gotta tell ya…i stuck with it for about a month and then that was it.  I want to committ myself to something more long term but it seems that life gets in the way.  Having a full time job and going to graduate school full time seems to fill up my days but i need to find time for me - especially time for me to get healthy.  I won’t pretend like i don’t have a weight in mind that i would like to be, or a clothing size but honestly that is not the most important part and i know that……i want to be here for a long time and for that to happen i need to start losing weight.  Would i love to wake up tomorrow a size 6…sure…but i know the end result isn’t going to come in a day, a week, a month or even a year and i am okay with that….i just want to be on a [successful] road to the end result.

Well i guess that is all for now……thanx for listening